Nostalgia & Heartache in Starflyer 59’s Gold

Gold - Starflyer 59

Last week, I announced the ​“Chrindie ​‘95” project, a collaborative writing project celebrating some of the great alternative and underground Christian rock that was released two decades ago. I’m pleased to announce that my first contribution, a remembrance of Starflyer 59’s Gold, is now live.

Hopefully, this excerpt will help explain why I wanted to write the piece in the first place:

Indeed, Gold features some of Martin’s mopiest, and therefore, most soulful songwriting ever, particularly on the one-two punch of ​“Messed Up Over You” and ​“When You Feel The Mess.” (Oh, and the epically downbeat ​“Next Time Around” on Golds companion Le Vainqueur EP.) And again, let me reiterate that this soulfulness isn’t about anything ​“spiritual” per se, but rather, all about heartache. Heartache so bad, in fact, that Gold’s liner notes needed to include a reference to Psalm 34:18: ​“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

This may all seem trivial, but realize that in 1995, I was a painfully awkward, hormone-addled, romantic train-wreck just entering college. I had countless crushes on girls who never knew because I was too shy and awkward to tell them. And a part of me felt guilty for feeling that heartache because it seemed so… un-Christian and worldly. As a good youth group kid, my heart and mind should’ve been on ​“Godly” things, not the latest girl to tie my heart up in knots.

It was a fun piece to write — I always relish the opportunity to dive back in to a favorite or influential album — and hopefully, I’ll be able to contribute one or two more pieces to the project.

Read more about Chrindie, Chrindie 95, Gold, and Starflyer 59.